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2010-04-27T12:59:00.002+08:00

To start off, I'm quite excited to work this coming sat! First time working as a beauty advisor and its been such a long time since i work in the sales line and somemore it is a job that I'm interested in. I mentioned in my previous post that I wanted to gain experience and more exposure in office job but since its already end of april,and I've went through 5 interviews to be exact, i've seen the whole picture and i've decided to work part-time and see how thing goes(:

Heres a brief summary of the interviews i went:
1st interview-it went smoothly and i got accepted by the pay is kinda low& location is inaccessible therefore i rejected it.
2nd interview: this job requires me to work in a condo as an Admin Assistant dealing with customers complain, billing and booking of facilities, it didnt quite like the job scope, well its over and i'm not accepted.
3rd interview: it was a position as an admin officer, the demand from this job is really really challenging and taxing. I dont think i've the cut for this job and i was pretty nervous for this interview. Furthermore, the location is kinda far and i dont think the company will accept me.
4rd interview: The job that i was selected!
5th interview: this job was sort of trying my luck to get a office job but the position was customer service officer. Alot of calls to be pick up and it requires you to be extremely patient to deal with customer complain, definitely not an easy job. I kind of performed really well during e 1st round but for e 2nd round i screwed up everything cause they're testing my phone communicating. My mandrain was really bad cause i dont speak very frequently though i understand all the single words when i watch the chi news. Quite disappointed at first but well its over. Benefits and pay for this company is really good ((:

So for now, i should be contented that i got a part-time job and the pay is kinda good! But the bad thing is I got to work during wkends! Perhaps i wasnt the type who can work in the office and there are many potential candidates during interview, so things might be blessing in disguise that i wasnt selected.

Who says finding a job is easy?? I had a hard time looking for one with a reasonable pay. Right now, i got to memorise every single products!

BB!

2010-04-09T21:13:00.003+08:00

I'm in a real dilemma. I applied for a few admin jobs for the last few months but out of 3, I only got accepted by 1 company. I'm confused whether to accept the beauty advisor job(apparently they've accepted me but work havent got started). Right now, I want to gain as much experience as I can for if I got accepted by SIM for the full-time course, its not quite possible for me to work full-time. ARGHHH. WHY CANT I SEEM TO MAKE UP MY MIND?KILL ME!

I dont want to be broke for the next 5-10 years repaying debts for my school fees:((
SHOULD I REJECT THE SALES LINE JOB?
Since working for a make-up line has always been my dream but I couldnt care less now cause I really need finance/banking/accounting job experience in order to secure a job after taking my degree. I dont want to face the same problem after graduating from poly, not getting any jobs because I am a fresh graduate. It sucks feeling this way now..

CONCLUSION: I'll see how is my uni application, hopefully end of this mth(which i dont think so cos i have not submitted my full diploma and last semester's transcript). *crossed my fingers*

SERIOUSLY ALL THESE THOUGHTS ITS MAKING ME FEELING NEGATIVE NOW!

I hate knowing the direction of life I'm heading to is like walking aimlessly everyday. Apart of me scared that I would not be able to cope with the heavy workload in uni that I opted for a full-time course and at the same time is the money issue. I feel embarrassed to take pocket money from my parents and since I've graduated with a diploma, its logical for me to get a full-time job. But the BIG question will be: will i able to cope with full-time job and part-time studies?
Is degree really everything about education?
Does degree guarantees a good paying job?
I dont want to graduate with a degree and find myself struggling to secure a job because 5-10 years time, everyone is a local graduate be it from a local or private uni.

SHOULD I CONTINUE LOOKING FOR A PART-TIME ADMIN JOB?

2010-03-24T14:46:00.003+08:00

Results are out(: I can happily say im OUT of RP. I did pretty fine for my last semester test which i've gotten 1 B+, 1 B, 2C+ and 1C. Though it is not a very awesome results and I must really say my efforts are paid off :) I was expecting my retail module to get a B grade but sadly i got a C+. Sigh. I really regretted not studying hard during year 2 which cause a drop in my gpa from 2.9 till even lower and i manage to pull up my gpa during year 3 and I was pretty amazed that I can actually do well provided if I study:) I'll be really grateful if the competition at SIM wouldnt be that competitive so that I can get a place for full-time course. *cross my fingers*

Back to drama :))

2010-03-22T14:25:00.002+08:00

Well, im bored! Life after graduating is all about slacking. But im glad that i worked 2 weeks as a part-time recep @ woodlands to kill time! Though it is really boring but i self-entertained myself by reading storybooks, newspaper and all the magazines at the book shelves. Meanwhile, I tried to catch up with all the dramas and movies at home! Isnt that better than going out?Since it had been raining every single day and spore is so boring till the extent i dont know what to do at times and universal studio is opened! Cant wait to go there and for the first time in my life, I wanna break the norm and try all the exciting and thrilling rides! Totally regretted not trying it out during my trip in korea. The rides are so thrilling and heart-popping that I refused to take the ride because of my phobia of fast rides and the height!

The space mountain rides at HK disneyland really left a deep impression on me because my legs are shaking and I couldnt walk properly after the ride! What a lousy me :( Honestly speaking, I'm quite a timid person and for now i wanna get out of my comfort zone and do a different thing :) Life is all about trying and experiencing new stuff. Who knows i might love it after sitting?! Even my ex-company director who is 40 plus sat on the thrilling rides at universal studio, so tell me why should I not try it since im young & fit??!

Praying hard that my application to SIM will be good (: RP can only released my academic transcript & diploma cert around mid-may, I dont know what took them so long but I really wants to get into a full-time course in banking & finance.

Meanwhile, I should just bury myself into dramas and movies(:

2010-03-14T00:59:00.004+08:00

"Caring too much for a person might become your burden"
I thought this statement is damn true cause the more you care about e person, e more you find that you're into this person's situation be it a small part of him/her or regardless of his/her life as a whole.
I learn that you can never care so much for a person or rather you can care to a certain extent but not overly concerned cause it will turn into a habit that you cant seems to get rid of. Sometimes it might turn out to be bad.

2010-03-07T21:38:00.001+08:00

"You can try your hardest - you can do everything within your means but sometimes people just aren't worth it anymore. They aren't worth all the tears and worrying, and it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down."

2010-03-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

I used to wonder why everyone was so crazily in love with "sorry sorry" by super junior, its no doubt my fav playlist and it had been repeating non-stop that I'm not getting sick of it. Hehe (:

I'm so gonna search for all the thai pop songs to listen cause I find myself seriously hooked up and its really nice.

For once, I wants to stop looking at jobstreet, jobsdb and jobscentral for a moment. Got 'forced' to take a indefinite break because I could not get a job after sending so many resumes and attending like 4 interviews. Still remaining positive and waiting for results for the last 2 interviews. (: If not im so going to slack till school commence in august if I got accepted by SIM.

Work part-time or wait to get a full-time job?Really in dilemma. Apart from me wanting to gain as much experience as possible, I dont want to sit and wait for the job cause cash is running real low and I'm really sick of slacking. More of wanting to keep myself occupied.

Life's a bitch. When school is OUT, all of us were like looking forward for the big holiday to rest. But when we had slacked enough, we just want to do something productive other than slacking and wasting our time away. Contradicting ya? Other than that, got really sick of my dad's nagging and I just wants to shut my doors at home and do my own stuff.

Staying at home and shut my doors will be good for now. No disturbance.

2010-02-26T15:30:00.002+08:00

"People come, people go-they'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favourite book. When you finally close the cover,the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book,complete with new character and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

2010-02-15T15:26:00.004+08:00

Taken from someone's blog. I kinda like what she wrote. Totally explains how I feel sometimes. Sometimes we dwell and yearn for certain things in life that we know will never be ours but we just have this hope and anticipation that things will goes our way. But the truth and reality overwhelms everything and you find it hard to catch up with the pace because the truth is, it is never meant to be yours. So much of saying, I've given up on what is so called love. I dont yearn for love so much like I did in the past and I've changed to a new person with my own goals and expectation to fulfill. Thanks to someone who push me to the bottom pit and make me stand up strongly again. You can laugh at whose the biggest loser now but I'm definitely not the one.

Being alone at times makes me discover more about myself but people tend to have this perception that I'm a loner but the truth is, it calms my mood and make me realize what have I done for the past few days or months. It is about discovering more about yourself, loving yourself and doing some soul-searching. When you're out with your friends, you wont have the time to do it why not spent quality time on yourself and discover and understand something about yourself that you didnt expect?If friends know me for a long time, they knew I dont hang out with a group of friends everyday because I dont see a point in doing that and its not because I dont value friendship as much as you guys do. A good friend doesnt need to meet everyday but a good friend is someone who is there to help you whenever you need them. Though I might not be good in consoling my friends, at least I lend a listening ear and be there to listen to them. Ever since, I hang out with different groups of friends, the truth is most of them dont understand me and they thinks i've this heck-care-attitude inside me. I cant live up to everyone's expectations and I really need alot of spare time alone and going out everyday doesnt makes me a happier person. Only being alone allows me to rest sufficiently. A weekly or monthly catch up will be good not everyday. True enough, I cant hang out in a particular group for long cause I can never meet up to people's expectation and I really need lots of freedom to do whatever I want.

You can have this love and hate me and you're given a choice to do that cause to me you can never please anyone in the world so just be yourself cause only your good friends will love you for who you are regardless of whatever decisions you made in life. :)

Two blogs entry that I've taken below :
"
End of the year kidda make me reminisce about the past again.
I wouldn't help but laugh at myself for being so naive one year ago (:
However, the truth is that i have never regret making an effort to make thing work out then. It's really okay as thing have developed to this state. Perhaps, this is the best outcome that we can think of and all we can do is to accept reality. "Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin."
Yes, this is true. Life goes on, earth won't stop moving just without the absence of one. There is also no point holding onto something that left long time ago, cus sooner or later you'll realize something are just not meant to be in the first place.

"

"

Solitude : State of being alone, especially when you find it pleasant.

How many of us are comfortable with being alone?

Not many, as most of us will have this misconception that spending time alone clearly means that we lack attention, social skills, self-centred, outcast, unloved.

For me, being in solitude means a time to find myself again, gather some strength to conquer the battles ahead. To understand and love myself once more.

2010-02-05T18:58:00.001+08:00

Can time heal all your pain?

As a saying goes" time will heal all your pain"
Often a times, we cant let go is because we cant bear to let go and we're not ready to let go because of many reasons which we are not able to explain.
I believe letting go is never wrong and if you have the will and determine to do it, you can defintely do it :)

Something that i've read in a blog, super inspiration!

~ When we got hurt in relationships, in dealings, in environments. What is our usual foremost reaction or instinctive behaviour? Most likely a tendency to blame everything else.

When we are hurt by people or situations, being hurt physically or emotinally, we say to ourselves, time will heal the pain.

What really happens , is that we tend to store this pain & memory in our heart and mind. Hidden under the shadow of self-denial, avoidance & ignorance. Although it is buried but is not released and thus form a barrier. This buried past or memory of pain affects and sabotage all your relationships.

Consider this way, release it by forgiving & letting go, of yourself and involved parties. This is not a new method, it is found in a number of school of thoughts, only called by different names.

Some interesting thoughts to really consider:
~
You can only heal it if you are ready to heal it.
You can heal it only if you want to.
You can heal it, by letting go, by releasing it.

You can heal it if you realise that no one in lesson is perfect.
You can heal it if you realise that we all make mistakes.
You can heal it if by having mercy for yourself and others.

You can heal it if in your heart,
there is always a better tomorrow,
filled with hope, love and light.

Contributed by Jay Wu.

2010-01-24T20:53:00.003+08:00

I would say the final FYP presentation didn't went smoothly and what I feel is I and my team were not fully prepared during the presentation and we were like loss of words and stuck with words when questions of codings were thrown to us. Very disappointed as a whole for myself as all the months effort of staying back and trying to do the codes failed terribly for me. Though I take out time & effort to stay back and attempted to do my work, I was hesitating to give an answer when the assessors pose a question to me. I was on the verge of dying when I honestly said that my leader actually helped me for my codes. I knew that reflected very very badly on my grades should I say that. Even if I tried to cover up that I did the work, I was very afraid that they will pose questions that I could not answer. Overall, I didnt expect this outcome for many series of unfortunate events happened before presentation.

First of all, we failed to download notepad ++ on the sch loan laptop and we tried several times but to no avail, there are error messages prompting us which really make me super frustrated and helpless. Secondly, the laptop is functioning at a super low speed which make us even more irritated. All 4 laptops cant be projected, tell me is that fate or are we unprepared for circumstances?

Through this fyp, I really learnt alot. Through differences, conflicts and disagreements. Its never resolved till the end of the fyp and I walked out in sadness and disappointment.

Enough of sad issues , I got over it within a day. Even it were to be the past me, I dont think I can get over it so soon perhaps I will take a week to really get over this whole episode.

I need a pass for now. Thats how desperate I am

2010-01-02T13:49:00.003+08:00

Welcome to 2010! :))
I would not say 2009 had been a very fantastic year for me but at least 3/4 of my resolutions were fulfilled. Am proud for myself and at least I know I've been rather productive. Rewinding back on 2009, I went through many obstacles but its worth learning through setbacks and people's true colors. I learn how to deal with my own problems and try to solve it without avoiding the problem.
Life is never beautiful when you learn how to fall and pick yourself up again.

Back to 2010.
There are a number of resolutions that I will try to achieve it.
1.Getting a good GPA at the end of e last sem! (1 n a half mths before i graduate)*beaming with joys*
2.Getting a job with a acceptable pay(gonna work my ass to pay my sch fees)
3. Getting a place in SIM.(very determined to get my degree, dont want to start yaking in future why i didnt choose to take a degree when i reach a certain age) will get it done asap and by 24 yrs old im a degree holder!HOHO
4.Keeping myself fit with regular excerise!
5. Becoming a better person and of course i want to be all-rounded(i know its so impossible)
6.World peace and happiness for my family & friends
7. Holiday trip! (yessss, bangkok trip is confirmed for next mth)eat & shop till i drop!
8.Make new good friends. HAHHAHA. (kinda hard cos i normally cope up at home cause im either too lazy to attend gatherings or i just dont feel like gg out)

Time flies. A year passed and I will be a year older. 21 yrs old?! Totally cant imagine. No big birthday celebration in mind perhaps just a quiet dinner with family. Being 21 yrs old is another milestone in my life and is a whole new level of responsibility. Gonna slog hard for the rest of my life to achieve all the luxuries in life! =) Good food, clothes, bags and holiday!

Enough say, school commencing soon and fyp and uts are around the corner. Back to mugging again. I know mugging now is nothing compared when I will be accepted to SIM, the mugging will be like X 2. One and a half mth will be over soon and I wants to see good results for this last semester! Overall, satisified with my UT 1 grades except for one. Oh well, I will continue to work hard! :)

Till then,
xoxo

2009-12-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

Its coming to the end of the year. I'm glad that it had been a really awesome year with all my goals and achievement being fulified.
Firstly, i finally got my class 3A driving license! Its like a dream come true and I really cant expressed how i felt when i saw that piece of paper. Moments of joy and I know all my friends & family were very happy for me. Thanks ppl (:
Secondly, I've put in lots of effort and time in my tests and fyp and I really see e results that i've put in. A slight improvement in my GPA. Something to be happy about. ((:
Thirdly, I've been working out more regularly than before! Like a weekly routine? Either its jogging or swimming but I prefer swimming more!
Next, went to two holiday trip within a year which are mainly korea and KL!
A splendid and enjoyable trip to Korea (: First time experiencing the summer weather and wearing winter clothes. Definitely a very nice country with beautiful scenery.

Time flies. People do changed. Perhaps I've forgotten how to give my care & concern to someone.Perhaps,I've forgotten how to speak in a tone that I normally speak to you. But everything changes since the day you choose to make this decision.
Ive changed to a person who cant be bothered about you for e slightest reason and you indeed make me a much stronger person.

2009-11-23T13:33:00.003+08:00

I was reading something very meanginful on the magazine. So let me share with u guys :)

"Being happy is ultimately about working a little harder. While we may think happiness ought to be the most natural thing in the world, it's not an easy state to achieve. "

"If we observe genuinely happy people, we find that they do not just sit around".They make things happen. They pursue new happenings, seek new achievements, and control their thoughts and feelings"

The true happiness guide.
1.Express gratitude
2.Nurture social r/s
3.Develop resilience
4.Stop comparing
there's always be someone prettier,smartier and stronger. Start appreciating yourself for who you are instead :) Everyone has their own unique individual character :) So please love yourself and love who you are :)
5. Be charitable.

After reading this whole article, I finally knew why am I so happy throughout this whole year :) its not because ive this bo-chip attitude inside me but because I know how to handle situation to make myself less bothered about what others think or feels about me. On a random note, I feel much more happier being single than being tied-down. Cheers to singlehood!

X0X0

2009-10-05T20:56:00.003+08:00

School is starting tmr and is back to 4 days sch week and monday is my off day (: Good and bad. Cause I got e weekend job! Cash running real low cause after paying for all my driving, i got to start saving to earn back all the money again. Yes, its gonna be tiring but no pain no gain. 2009 goal not achieve for now and im just one step away to get it!

5 weeks of holiday was put to good used. 2 weeks of slacking and 3 weeks of non-stop working. Turning into a workaholic. I was pretty surprised of how I was able to cope with the taxing hours of standing and finally today I've gotten a well-deserved break before I attend sch tmr with a clear mind. :D
Not exactly looking forward towards sch but its just one more semester before i graduate. A whole new challenges ahead with daily modules, UTs and FYP.
Attended the first fyp meeting with my team mates, we've foreseen its not going to be easy.

Am happy with last semester results. The best compare to year 2's results. Efforts are paid off (: I love the satisfaction when i've gotten the results seeing how much effort I've put in.

Since im having a 4 days weeks plus i got to work over e wkends, im squeezing time to excerise but im glad i did last wk despite being so busy. I guess having a proper time management its v important like planning your schedule ahead and making sure you are disciplined enough to complete it.

I want to watch my hk drama! BB.

2009-09-29T17:08:00.005+08:00

On the verge of giving up cause its hard for me to accept. Nevertheless, I have did my best and I can only say today is not my day. Super nervous and I was not in my usual standard. Speechless but I'm waiting for one and a half month later for the day to come. I dont want to recall back what happened today cause the images keep appearing in my mind causing me to feel disheartened. I want it so badly yet its so near yet so far.
I will try again=))
Probably i'm too affected by others said, whatever it is I live for myself and I should not be too bothered by what others have to feel or said.
Thanks for all e encouragement!

2009-09-21T21:13:00.007+08:00

Finally a proper update. 3 weeks of holiday is down and left with 2 more weeks till sch reopened. Holiday had been put to good used. Came back from KL 1 week ago and had been working for a week. 1 more week plus and its freedom for 2 days before i say HI to school + FYP+ UTs. I cant wait for work to end!!

Here's pictures of my KL trip with my family & celebration of grandmum's birthday.
It's all about food =D

Went down for an job interview today. Hopefully I can get e job and work part-time weekends! :)

2009-08-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

My blogspot is in a total mess now.Im thinking of switching over to a new blog and Im kind of lost touch to blogging. Life have been hell good for me and holidays have started quite awhile. Meanwhile, I enjoyed slacking at home for now and occasionally chilling out with friends. I dont need my holidays to be a happening one, just a good mixture of partying, going out, good food, working and travelling! A short check of my bank account and it had been depleting so much that I cant help but to say that I really need a part-time job for now. My monthly allowance is kind of pathetic but I dont grumble and complained or ask for more from my parents because that is their hard-earned money. If only I am still holding the job that I had last year perhaps I will not feel so tight of cash now. Partly because of the huge amount I spend on driving and the monthly insurance that I got to pay, its a huge burden to me now. Pardon friends who always ask me to go out everyday but I cant go out so frequently considering factors like eating out and cabbing home last minute. I really got to save for rainy days and for future uses. Totally cant imagine if I start studying in UNI, I will have lots of burden like paying debts to my parents and holding a part-time job to finance my shopping and clubbing. Im thankful that I am not a shop-a-holic or a hardcore clubber. Though I really like to shop just like any other girls, I got to restrict myself time to time.Money is not something that is drop down from the sky, you got to work hard to earn it. As I grew older, I realized that there are many things to worry about,having enough money is one issue. No money no talk. That is how realistic the world is becoming. Having a diploma is simply not enough consider the fact there are so many private uni around in singpapore and everyone is getting a degree for the seek of getting a better pay. If you dont have a degree, you are going to lose out in this competitive world.

Looking back at the past one year, the old me, I definitely have changed my perceptions of things in a much broaden way. I no longer look at things at just a focus point. I met different people and been through different stages of life and I cant help but to feel I've grown up. The decision of letting go and giving up this whole r/s its definitely worthwhile. It mould me to a better, independent and a stronger person. I learn to stand up from the scratch just like how a baby who doesnt knows how to walk when he/she was born out. The dark period were the hardest to get by but I still managed to stand up and sleep peacefully every night. No more sobbing cries or heartache. No more, and its not going to happen again. I've seen the worse of the worse so what can anything bring me down?Absolutely not. No more grudges,hated and love. Its just purely me. I love being who I am and I am happy with my life now. Its had been a wonderful 1 year break :) I broke my silence after two months simply because too may thoughts were on my mind and I cant seem to process my thoughts and type how I feel exactly. But now I know exactly what I really want and the direction I am heading to.

2009-08-17T01:00:00.003+08:00

Im detached from my blog for such a long time!
Just to say Marilyn is getting fatter!
She has to stop indulging on fattening food and exercise regularly.
I want to wear pretty clothes
=(

2009-07-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

The whole week was rather exhausting with 2 UTs and lessons fill with theory and calculation.
UT grades are out, im satisfied for accounting UT and more room for improvement on my other UTs.
2 Uts down and 2 more to go.
I love e packed and busy life that I have now.
Sort of "no life" but the feeling of learning something at the end of the day and knowing that you learn something gives me a sense of satisfaction.

Driving lessons are over, now waiting for revision lessons and my TP.
Kinda worried cause i just checked the website and the passing rates for TP and theory test is e lowest among the 3 driving schools.
And I actually heard rumours saying that ssdc is more difficult to pass compare to other driving schools.
I wasted 6 mths on BTT just to re-take over & over again so you know how I took great pains to endure till day.
Oh well, im must be fully prepared cos i've been waiting so long to take it!
One of my goal for 2009.

Give me lots of luck for UT next wk! :))

2009-07-09T00:14:00.003+08:00

Success only comes when you learn from your mistakes & failure.
I've met with many mistakes & failure, at times I just feel like giving up so badly.
But the thing that keeps me going is the sense of achievement and fulfillment when I see results, the hardwork that I put in.
A wake up call to do even better.
One thing that I am grateful that I never once give up in everything I do.

At times, I feel that I've set very high expectations and when I cant fulfil it at the end of the day, I feel disappointed.
I told myself that I got to do things at my own pace and when I discovered the right path, this is when I am going to learn.

2009-06-28T22:59:00.003+08:00

Father's Day and Mum's birthday 2 weeks ago.
=)
Dine at Lawry Ribs. Super nice ambiance and decoration.

Have my all time fav Lawry Beef!

My mum's dish. She cant eat beef.

After a sumptuous dinner, we dropped by hagen daz for ice cream! Buy 1 get 1 free for citibank holder.

Mum bought a cake at Conrad hotel. 50 % off only. Definitely cheap and the cake taste really heaven (:

The cake is split into two favours such that e left side is a banana cake and the right is a chocolate cake. Super unusual and I liked it. =D

2009-06-28T00:17:00.003+08:00

H1N1 in RP

With the increasing number of confirmed cases of RP having H1N1, I seriously feel that the sch should just grant all the students from leave of absence. The virus have been spreading and there are a total of 36 confirmed cases up to date. It jumped from a total of 18 cases on friday and up to 36 cases on saturday. It is so severe that I think the govt should just shut down the sch for a week to stop the virus from spreading.

I am not going to get paranoid and stop going to school but I hoped the school can take drastic action and give us the assurance that everything is fine.

Life still goes on(:

2009-06-25T17:05:00.005+08:00

Im too lazy to update my damn blog.
No inspiration and I got really bored of blogging although I got like many photos to upload but im just lazy.
Wait till I got the motivation to blog.
Damn,and the recent UT grade seriously make me damn disappointed.
Lots of careless mistake and when the fac goes through the answer, i realise that I actually knows how to do it just that i didnt read the question properly.
I really need to pray hard for 2 other UTs which is marketing & accounting. :))
More lucks please & stop making careless mistakes mari!
Need to buck up and get yr desire grade!

Enough of UT,back to FYP.
Left with remaining 4 weeks to presentation.
Its sch, FYP, sch, FYP.
Though its a challenging period for me but I really hope my efforts is paid off.

Sometimes i wish i was born with smart brains..

Somehow it feels different today but once thing i knew everything had changed.

2009-06-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

I passed my final theory test!! :)
All I can say my efforts are paid off.
Right now, I want to concentrate on finishing my lessons and book my TP.
Sch starting tmr and im definitely not anticipating.

2009-06-10T15:28:00.005+08:00

2nd last day at Jeju Island and back to seoul (:

Went to strawberry farm! Look how happy I and my sis were when plucking all the fresh strawberry.

This is Gyeongbok Palace.

Proceed to the Korea Traditional Cultural Centre where I learn to make kimchi. So cool and awesome =)

Dress in hanbok(traditional korean costume)

Look at e loots that I bought at Shinchon Fashion street. This is e first stop only!

Ginseng chicken soup+abalone.

2009-06-09T19:18:00.004+08:00

2nd week of of holiday now.
Left with one week to make use of it.
I'm almost done with my part for FYP but I always feel that I've not done enough for the team.
Cant help much cause I am bad in codings.
But I did what was required by my leader.
And I definitely learn something for the past 2 weeks of coding.

As for driving, completed stage 1 of driving and now im at stage 2.
FTT is this thursday.
Cant wait to cleared everything.

Exercise plan accomplished alittle but I still feel that I got to push myself to exercise more!

Clubbing last week at rebel/lunar/zirca was a blast!
Paul's birthday too :)

2009-06-09T14:30:00.015+08:00

Day 5 @ Seoul and Day 6-Jeju Island.
Due to the flight delay, my tour's schedule was in a mess up state. Lots of calls and arrangement got to be make in order to fly to Jeju Island. To substitute for that, went to a trip to learn more about the water in Korea. We received a good news after a few hrs in the morning that we got a flight flying from seoul to Jeju Island. So we hurried to the airport to catch the 3 plus flight. I swear the night at Jeju Island was the most tiring, with schedule as early as 8am and returning to the holiday at only 2-3am and waking up at 6 plus in the morning. Many activities lined up and things kind of mess up which left us very little time to take pretty pictures. That explains why my pictures came out with poor quality(partly because of the IXOS) and the movement of the camera.

Arriving at jeju internation airport.

This place is called the "mysterious road". I cant rmb the exact reason for naming this place.

Next destination-Yongduam Rock(Dragon Head Rock). Can you see the formation of e shape of a dragon?

Nanta show was awesome.

Super comfy place to sleep after a tiring long day of travelling & working!

Day 6 :)

Teddy bear Museum.

It exhibits everything about teddy bears of various countries, time and themes and differnent sizes. Very suitable for teddy bear lovers! Im not a big fan of it. Still prefer hk disneyland! But its an eye-opening.

Best part of the whole trip!Submarine tour!

Live sea animals

Live sashami

Next up horse-riding. First time seating it, I must say its really thrilling & exciting. Nice experience and I was grabbing the horse rope so tightly that my hands are sweating profusely. Haha!

Seongsan Sunrise Peak! Super tiring after climbing up to e top of e mountain

Thats e end :))

2009-06-09T14:19:00.006+08:00

Outing with family on Labour day(1st may)

First time trying techeow food and I must say I really quite liked it.

Techeow restaurant in centrepoint

Food makes a happy girl :)

2009-05-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

Took this from a blog and I find it very meaningful.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together."

There is always a no wrong or right answer when things doesnt goes e way you want it to happen.
When you fall hard, you learn to stand up.
I am glad that I've become so much stronger.

2009-05-30T21:37:00.006+08:00

Finally a proper update =D

My laptop is back in piece!
Im happy about it.

Pictures for 3 weeks ago :) Alright, I know its like damn long ago cos as you can see, im rather lazy to blog!
Sg flyer , Museum and clubbing.
The rest are all up at fb :)

2 weeks of holiday is here! I want to be productive. :)
It will be all about driving + fyp.

2009-05-27T00:08:00.003+08:00

Using school's loan laptop to blog now :(

My laptop is not exactly in a bad state but it cant seem to charge and the wire is loose somewhere.

I just want to get it fix and repair asap.

Cant do codings for the moment cause its impossible to do in e sch's loan laptop.

And carrying an equivalent weight of 2.5kg loan laptop is killing me instantly.

Why must my laptop die of me during my importat UT wk?

Oh man.

Words cant expressed how I feel.

I simply cant live without my laptop just for a day.

It is just part and parcel of my life already.

My laptop entertains me when I am always bored, my source of entertainer.

Now its actually not charging!

Gonna be a busy day tmr! Travelling down to jurong to fix my lappy before I go for my driving.

Many overdue pictures yet to upload.

Sg flyer & spore museum.

FYP is all about codings.I realised there is really so many things for me to revise and to apply on my FYP. Feel so dead and my laptop is in a poor state which makes me even more frustrated. Cant do anything and cant practise at all. I hope im not lagging behind because I really want to do my part and contribute as a team.

On the other hand, I am half looking forward to e 2 weeks holiday because its gonna be a mass clubbing session with peeps! And not to forget it is going to be more codings over e two weeks and more driving lessons.

2 UTs this week and I hope im fully prepared for it :)

2009-05-18T14:22:00.005+08:00

Life is indeed very fragile.
It made me realise that I got to cherish my loved ones and people who are e dearest to me.
It taught me not to take things for granted but to spent every single minutes with people whom I loved.

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Even as friends, we fought and argued. When can this put to an end?
I sat down and think properly, all e while I have been cherishing the wrong person. I neglected people who cares for me and who wants to see the happier side of me.
Nothing can bring me down from today onwards, not even your existence.

I learn to protect myself from being hurt and I wont ever pin high hopes on anyone.
You threw me into the ocean and I got to struggle with all my strength to reach e shore.

The feeling of being helpless sucks like totally.
I swear I dont want to see myself in this state anymore.

You know its e end of everything and you dont expect anything in return from e person, but e emotionally & physically hurt traps inside you which affects
your daily life. Yet the person treated yesterday just like a past and you can only grieve in pain for the past 9 months.

It sucks seriously.

2009-05-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

I love driving! I need to pass my FTT next mth! *pray hard for me* :)
Its a must for me to pass before I take my TP.
ARGHHHHHHHH

2009-05-12T23:14:00.014+08:00

Day 4-Daegu (:(:

American breakfast style.

Took some pictures at this magnificent scenary! Unforgettable place.

Next stop was at Bulguksa Temple. Went to pray my studies, health and my driving license.

Last destination at daegu :) Visit to the Wine tunnel. The temperate inside the tunnel is around 15-16 degree Celsius. All the wines are made from persimmons. A very special taste and we got a free sample to try :) It tastes really sweet not really suitable for wine-lovers.

Unfortunately due to some circumstances, my flight didnt land at Jeju island as planned. We wasted 3-4 hours at the airport to travel back to our original hotel at daegu and we had our very late dinner + supper before we turned in to bed. I was dead tired at the end of the day.

Dinner :)

2009-05-07T00:13:00.001+08:00

No matter how difficult is it to pass a day, I still tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day.
:)

2009-05-03T23:00:00.005+08:00

Im mentally drained after one whole week of school+ FYP. Good thing there is long weekends(Friday, Saturday and Sunday) for me to replenish my energy. Weekends was great. No more late-night party. But im really missing night life. Those stress free days when I step into phuture and dance like nobody's business and not to worry that theres sch the next day.But right now, I should get my focus right! Though I really dread FYP but I still got to love it.

Weekends was outing with family and swimming with friends :) Healthy lifestyle. I hope to swim weekly and get back in shape. I must admit that I've cut down alot of oily and fatty food and eat a balance of 2 meals per day. Watching my diet very closely cause I dont want to turn out to become some fat pig.HAHAA.sounds abit exaggerating but as your age is catching up, you will put on weight more easily. So I need to cultivate a habit to excerise weekly!

Im mentally and physically dreaded for this whole episode of 6 months, I admit that I don't feel appreciated at all. We learn to give and take but its really pointless for me to give anything when I dont receive anything in return.
The problem still exists time after time. Going our separate ways was never wrong all these while. I believe without you, life still goes on for me. It is never a right or wrong. At times, I feel like a bird without wings, cant seem to fly anywhere I want. A suffocated bird that always traps inside the cage. Do you know how difficult is it to control my emotions and feelings?

Putting all e faults and blames on me is enough. Things will never be the same.

No worries :) Im cheerful girl, everything will be back to normal within a day.
I need a happy pill for now.

2009-04-29T23:15:00.010+08:00

Day 3 in Korea-Seoul :)))

My breakfast!!

Went to the largest theme park in Korea which is "Everland". This is the 2nd theme park that I went in Korea.

Went to explore inside e animal farm!

Spotted a very unique car.

Tallest, highest and fastest roller coaster in Korea! My heart just sank when I saw e thrilling rides.

Restaurants inside the theme park..

My lunch for e day. 3 sausages and fries.

Took this ride with my family.

Another exciting ride..

So many candies!! I can really die from e sweetness if I ever eat it.

Very Famous Korean BBQ black pork in e country! :))My fav cos im a pork lover.

2009-04-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

Its only e 2nd day of school and im feeling so stressed up over FYP. Have been staying back after sch for 2 days to complete our work and I really blessed to have really hardworking team mates :)
Never been so hardworking for my entire poly life to stay back to do project, its like e last thing on my mind? But for e sake of FYP and with e help of my team mates, I need to put in effort to contribute relevant stuff to them. Its gonna be a 13 weeks of hectic schedule with school-project-school-project-school-project and never ending....
CODING?My biggest concern for the whole FYP. Dealing with PHP CODES?
I've forgotten almost 3/4 of my stuff and basically I got to start learn and revise my work all over again.

Lets hope everything goes well for tmr!:))

Im feeling so lethargic after school that I wish i can travel home in e shortest time to head back home to sleep. Been sleeping early and waking up early:) tats good for my complexion. Im happy :))

On the other hand, I got to put my driving lessons aside. Just when im so hooked and engrossed with my driving, school reopens! How am i going to squeeze in my driving lesson when I've to stay back in school to do FYP?
I dont wish to forget whatever I had learnt. Hopefully I can manage my time properly and try to squeeze some quality time to take up my driving lessons.
Started on at least 3 lessons and driving is really really fun! Who cares whether my dad dont owes a car and I still wants to get my license?
FTT next mth, hopefully i can pass my first attempt :)

So many things to do yet so little time.
Sigh.
Yoga?Dance classes?Exercise?
I want to fulfil at least one!!
Im so going to jog tmr after FYP meeting.

2009-04-18T17:15:00.009+08:00

8 days korea lovin' was definitely a blast. I simply love e weather & shopping! Super cooling and the fashion over there is every gal favorite. Bought a few pieces of clothes and i cant resist those beautiful cardigan and my poor sis actually eye on something which she likes it a lot but apparently, that piece of cardigan run out of stock. Shes was kind of disappointed and i was telling her she got no fate with that piece of cardigan! hahaha.

All the girls in Korea are very well-dressed. Its so cool to dress like them :)But due to spore hot weather, its quite hard to wear thick coats, boots and long sleeve to school. You guys will normally see me in shorts and tshirt.Thats the most common dressing style for most girls in spore and reason being, its the most comfortable outfit to wear.

Took almost 700 plus photos and i've uploaded like 5 ablums already in fb. The last ablum will be up soon :))

April 6th-13th
DAY 1-Singapore->Incheon Airport(Seoul)

My flight was at 1o.30pm and it took approximately 6 hrs before I reach incheon airport.

While waiting for our flight, i took pictures..

Tats my supper onboard e plane :DAt incheon airport, all of us were hungry. Dad bought porridge for early morning breakfast

Our first destination was the Presidential blue house. The scenary is splendid! The weather was pretty cold too. Wasnt really used to the weather over there. Thus, the photos below explained why i was wearing such a thick coat.

Next stop was at "Daejanggeum Theme Park" also known as Da Chang Jin filming site. Went to explore the drama props, royal dishes and costumes created for the scenes.

Super cute fire extinguisher!!

Dropped by a vendor machine and bought a drink!
Final destination for the day was at "Lotte World Adventure Park". The filming site of drama series "Stairway to heaven". Super thrilling rides and high excitement. I wasnt really in a high mood to play cause i was really tired and i got a very small heart to play! If you're very daring can try out the exciting rides! :)

We ended our day with a nice dinner! Shopped around the whole basement and discovered many delicious donuts, pancakes and pizza!! OMG. cannot resist it and my dad bought a whole pizza at 10,000won($11.50) after 50% discount.

This device is our queue no. to collect our food! once e device vibrates, you can collect yr food at the counter. So amazing :D
Pork cutlet! Super yummy:)
I'll end my post here :) gonna rest.

2009-04-18T15:47:00.006+08:00

Im back from korea and the weather in spore is very hot now! it feels as though im in the volcano eruption and i cant help feeling irritated and grumpy. Even when the wind is blowing from e fan, i can still feel e heat from the surrounding. Arghh!!

Alright people. Its going to be a whole post of massive updates for the past few weeks. From birthday celebration to my holiday trip to my FYP and my driving lessons. Currently down with a flu but i pray that i'll get well soon! :) Cos next whole wk i will be busy with school and other activities, gonna start adapting to sch's timing and attend sch regularly. Im going to say no to party for e time being. :D

Angela's 19th birthday @ town
Angela aka. hello kitty. This girl never fails to bring lots of laughter in our group. Shes so bubbly and active like always. Hope you have yr share of fun! :)

Vanessa's 20th birthday @ clarke quay and boat quay
Sorry for this very overdue post! Thanks for being such a amazing Bff for e past one yr of knowing you :) We had always so much to talk about and our laughters always can be heard by anyone who know us. May our friendship lasts. :)

2009-03-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday meizhen! :) Hope you enjoyed the mac breakfast with i and my sis today.
And may everything goes well for you!

OMG. i know i look damn damn cui in this pic but i got no other pic that i've taken with her before.

2009-03-29T20:55:00.004+08:00

My feelings are restricted up till this very moment.
So many emotions and thoughts building inside me.
I feel unappreciated and undeserved at times, i might be alittle childish but i told myself i got to let go.
Sometimes you knew totally nothing about me, not even a listening ear, not even a concern.
Many people say i made e wrong choice but i choose to stand firm but nothing goes in any way, it only make me more disappointed.

Its always one sided.
I choose to live in self-denial rather than to accept facts.
Life is never fair.
I only want to thanks you for making me stronger.

2009-03-21T23:49:00.004+08:00

I know my blog seem very dead with no updates.
Simply too lazy to update.
Had been busy working for last week. 7 days straight. Was dead tired after working for warehouse sales and IT fair that i drop dead on my bed on sunday night and have a well-deserved rest for consecutively 4 days before i start work again. :)
Bought new make-ups/hair products and it feels good spending on your own hard-earned money.

Went for facial with bff after work and I must say the facial was super good. The beautician actually helps me to remove almost all my blackheads and whiteheads and did a full facial and message for me. My face was so smooth and I was having this very 'refreshed' feeling after the whole facial ends. Thumbs up :) i've recommended my sis to try and shes going next wk!

On a random note, i cant wait to go korea to experience e cold weather and put on my winter clothes :) Its gonna be so fun to eat, shop, sight-seeing and take tons of pictures!
I cant be bothered if im gaining extra kilos when i come back from spore cos im going to eat and try all e delicious food.

AND e new time-table for year 3 is out. Good news and bad news. Good news: I will be in e same class with my bff for one of e module and this is e one and only module which i know quite a number of frens! Bad news will be i got to change class every other day and get to interact with a new group of classmates for each module. Well, thats life in RP. Even if you hate it, you still have to accept it. No more slacking in RP! cos our school's standard have been raised to a higher level. Understanding test duration for 45 mins compared to the old system when our test is only for 30 mins. Lessons will not be held for week 16 and its a test week in another words, it means RP is doing e same as other poly, it is going to be a test week for all e students.Compared to e old system when week 16 is our last module and we can skip class!

Year 3 is gonna be busy with me. FYP! Kill me..

2009-03-08T15:51:00.007+08:00

Warning: Many food pictures!

Two weeks ago, went to Ah Yat restaurant to use the 200 bucks voucher that we got when we celebrated grandmum's birthday.
Appetizer

Fried potato

This is e highlight of e day! Best ingredients which comprises abalone,sharkfins,mushroom and other ingredients.

Raw sashimi(chinese style)

Ah yat's new dessert. Ice cream topping with red bean paste. Super yummy :)

Last weekend pictures :)
Last friday went to natas fair with my family to check out the travel packages and deals. Finally settle to fly to korea as mention in my previous post :) Got a free ipod shuffle because of the tour packages that my dad had paid.
Dinner was at geylang. Very famous claypot rice in that area :) Simply yummy.

Went to cut my hair first and poor van waited for an hour for me.(Sorry bestie):) Both of us were famished and we hurried down to pasta de waraku to have our dinner.

Cabonara pasta..creamy & cheesy...super sinful

After which we joined e guys for drinks at boat quay :)

2009-03-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

1 more day before work offically ends :)
Its plain boring but once i think of money, everything is worthwhile.
At least i need not complain that i always have no money to spent.
My exercise plan fails so miserably
Sigh..

2009-02-25T00:11:00.007+08:00

Im starting to get worry for my future. What am i going to do after i graduate from poly?
To apply for private UniSIM or to find a full-time job to gain some experience?
My sis told me nowadays the interviewers/bosses seem to look at your past working experience and lack of experience is something that will be put me to disadvantage. I've totally no idea what to do and what course to apply. After the holiday will be my final year in school. With my recent GPA result, i dont know if my chances getting into SIM is high with the economic being so bad now and so many jobless students in spore, its understandable that most students will apply to go Uni. And SIM being one of e more recognized private Uni now, no doubt the number of students will be more, i must work doubly hard to get a higher GPA so that my chances of getting in will be higher.

1 month of holiday is over,left with 6 more weeks of holiday. Will be going korea next month and i cant wait :))) Its gonna be a long getaway to really relax and play hard.

Being jobless for several months, i've been taking monthly allowance from my parents. It is not a big sum but im spending within my budget. If possible, i want to get a permanent weekend job so that i need not ask from my parents.

I got a 2 job offer next week. Not too bad, after one month of slacking;) Hope i got more job offers to keep me occupy till march.Some extra income to finance my retail therapy and shopping.

Went to chapter 2 to cut my hair ytd:) Its not a very drastic change but at least manage to cut away the excess long hair! Intend to cut shorter so that i dont need to apply lots of shampoo and conditioner to maintain my long hair, but on second thought, im still quite reluctant. I always prefer my hair to be messy and straight at e same time, e very natural feeling. Not too complicated. And my hair is fucking dry! No time to do treatment.

Im dissapointed :((I got to give my FTT a miss this coming tue! Just when i thought i was well-prepared and ready to take my ftt, i was been offered a job. It clashes with my job timing. Sigh..
I got to re-book another slot! Still intending to get my license before my birthday. Hopefully my goal is fulfilled:) Spent almost quite a sum on my practical lesson.

I was horrified when i measure my waist size ytd, i've grew fatter =(
My dad always feed me with good food and its no doubt im putting on weight.
I cant imagine what will my weight be when i return from korea.
Hopefully e food is not oily but healthy! I want to eat kimchi =))

Pictures on e next post :))

2009-02-17T14:42:00.005+08:00

Some pictures taken 2 weeks back.

Dinner with family on 6th of feb to celebrate my sis birthday. Venue was at liang's court, no. 1 restaurant in taiwan. :) The settings and ambience were great. I'll rate e food 8/10.

Look at e cute teapot.
Taiwan specialty porridge.

Went to boat quay with bestie van and friends on 7th of feb. Apparently, it was a awesome night. :) So much fun and laughters. I wasnt drunk at all.
Come, kiss me.
Im waiting for good news!

2009-02-14T16:44:00.003+08:00

Happy valentine's day!
Zouk was a blast ytd. :)) Though my legs was damn pain due to e hard leather flat shoes that i've wore, I still enjoyed myself.
I hope you guys have your fair share of fun.
On a side note, i need a job!!

2009-02-12T22:49:00.003+08:00

Still couldnt find any job till now. I guess i just got to register to fate or im just plain unlucky that the economic is so bad now. Send almost 10-20 resumes for the past 2 weeks but only receive 2 calls. Its either the interview was unsuccessful, not to my liking or they have enough people. I dont want to take any job assignment that is not towards my liking or passion cause i think i will lost the motivation to work. Still left with 2 mths for my holidays, i got to find lots of stuff to occupy myself.

Meanwhile, i'll just take my driving lessons and book for as many slots as possible. FTT next month, hope to bring back good news to u guys!

Sigh, its february now. Yet, ive still not fulfil any goals in 2009. I dont want to waste my time idling around and not achieving anything. My aim is to learn yoga and get my driving licence by this year. I dont think it is a difficult task to accomplish provided whether if i want to do it.

Looking back at 2008, i was too pre-occupied with what i thought will be a beautiful ending, putting in a lot of effort and wasted my time. I was blinded. Till e extent that even till now when i recalled about the past, it pains me to think about this person when i know very clearly everything is gone. I've got to curb my feelings for him. Its terrible when e night gets dark when i got no one to turn to except myself. I want to give myself a break for one year to get over everything. Its tiring to keep thinking about it everyday when you know it is a very heavy burden in your heart that you can never seem to get rid off. Sometimes i choose to stay at home to have some peaceful and quiet moments for myself without any distraction. Confidence?faith?hope?I lost all of it.. Falling head over heels for someone is e last thing on my mind.
Whats up on V.day? It doesnt seem impt anymore.. Not now definitely.

I was watching tv just now and something stucked upon me. It take both hands to clap and if one tries so hard to pull e string and the other one is not doing anything, nothing will work out. Why not just let go and you'll eventually find another pair of hands which will be suitable for you?
I thought that was very true. I shouldnt reflect back on the past anymore and should instead choose to let go and look forward. I dont know what is holding me back , perhaps its e feelings. What's gone is gone, theres nothing for me to feel sad about.

Whenever someone gets close to me, i tend to have this fear and the constant thoughts of the opposite party wanting to hurt me. Im not implying that to all my friends. Obviously, i trust all my close friends a lot. I mean someone who is a total complete stranger to me. It is hard for me to put my trust on someone again. Its that difficult,seriously.

I hope im really really fine......

2009-02-06T15:44:00.001+08:00

there can be miracles.
but how many times in our life do we encountered it?

2009-02-05T10:45:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to my sis :)

Today marks a special day in your life and not to forget you're one year older! its a sensitive age. so im not going to reveal here. hehe. thanks for being a great sis all these while, nagging me to pack my stuff and give me good advices every now and then. Hope you will have a great year ahead be it in your love life, work and your studies. :)))

2009-02-03T01:17:00.014+08:00

Happy Chinese new year!
I got so many pictures to upload that i dont know where to start. This year's new year wasnt that bored as what i thought. Tagged along with alex to go visiting to his friends house. If not i'll be bored to death at home.Thanks buddy:) Angbao money also quite BIG. The highest among all the years. House visiting,clubbing and going out had drained all my energy away.

I've been eating alot and i really mean ALOT. Im very certain i've put on a few kilos during the entire week. If you notice, my arms are getting fatter and my waist area too. I could no longer fit into some shorts and my levis jeans, its getting alittle tight for me. I got to hold my breath in order to fit inside. Excerising plan is coming soon!

Jobs hunting at the moment. It seem so difficult to find a job. I dont want to rot my days at home. So boring and not productive at all. If anyone got job lobang, do inform me!
Short-term/long-term/part-time its ok :)

Alright, pictures time!

Day one:Pihan's house(the owner is nt in e pic)hahaha.
We discovered many childhood stuff at his place so we decided to cam-whored. MJ! alright, im damn lousy in playing but im still learning. :) Obviously, i lost money.

Lastly, SUPPER TIME! super sinful i know. but cant help it when you're hungry.

Day 2: Went to 3 places for house-visting. First to cheryl's place,amer's place and my ex-colleage's place.
Group photo

Day 3 was clubbing day.

Day 4 met up with BFF for ktv session. It seriously cost us a BOMB. We've concluded that we'll never step in to kbox again!

Day 5: Went for an job interview and dine at grandmum's restuarant at orchard parade hotel. Hot spicy and delicious!

Day 6:Morning breakfast dim sum with my family :)
A cantonese cuisane resturant. Its my first time trying it. The yusheng's sauce is specially made by the chef. The char siew bao taste superb.

Last stop, went to soewandi's place for steamboat. It was a great gathering :)

2009-01-19T23:57:00.007+08:00

Overdue pictures!

Shopping day with bestie van! Shop the whole day with van but apparently we both went home empty-handed.

First clubbing session in 2009 with angie and friends :)
Zouk is my fav place and i want to club with all my fav ppl during holidays.

Grandmum's birthday on 10th of jan at Ah Yat restaurant.
yu sheng with salmon

Popular dish-shark fin(my fav)

Abalone with mushroom & vegetable

Fried & steam fish

Roasted chicken

Fried Noodle

Mango pudding dessert!

Headed to boat quay with van, shane, kate and kate's friends last friday. Drink, drank, drunk! Its been a long time since i last went there. Drank volkda orange and heinkein.

Testing out vanessa's new LG secrets 5 megapixel cam.

With such great friends and family, what more can i ask for?
I'm defintely more than contented.

CNY is around the corner,all i want is to eat,sleep and gamble!

2009-01-19T22:52:00.002+08:00

I passed my basic theory test! Like finally =D
A reason for me to be really happy today.
I cant wait to pass my final theory and experience the thrill on driving on e road.
Was on e verge of giving up when i failed a number of times for my btt but i was really grateful that i never once said i want to give up.
A proper update soon!
Holidays in a few days and CNY next week.

2008-12-31T01:01:00.001+08:00

I believe time will take my pain away.
:)
Get OUT of my life.
Anticipating for 2009.

2008-12-27T21:52:00.009+08:00

Holidays have so far been great but it gets too boring if i got nothing to do at home. Sleeping like 4-5am everyday is like my daily routine. No late night partying so far, just chilling out with friends and hang out till late night. Month to date i've only club twice. Zouk is my fav place but dragonfly simply bores e hell outta of me.

Im getting pretty sick of my lifestyle. No motivation, no aims, no goals. I always prefer my life to be more busy and fulfilling. I'll start planning what to do next week before i complain im bored again.

Very overdue pictures!

Van's bestie 18th birthday on 14th dec at costa sands,pasir ris.

Thanks for being there for me whenever i was down.
Come to think of it, we've been friends for one year plus. Though we've our own cliques but we still take time off to catch up once in awhile.

Im glad that i've celebrate christmas with two groups of friends. They bring so much joy,laughter and fun. I must say that i really enjoyed their company. :)

Part 1-House party @ Vanessa's place. We had games,food and drinks. The games kept us entertain for the whole night.

Xmas tree

Chocolate fondue.

Honey glazed chicken that i bought.

Lyon cooked these chicken wings. simply delicious :)
When all the gals gathered in the room, we started to cam-whored.
Take 1

Take 2Take 3

Take 4
Take 5I curled my hair with some help from vanessa.

Part 2- Went over to alex's friend house to celebrate xmas. It was a imprompt decision for me to join his friends. I wasnt in the mood to club and i didnt want to squeeze within the crowds. So the best place to go its his friend house! Had alcoholic drinks and anyone were getting tipsy and high. Stupid alex's friend want to make me drunk! Too bad alright.:) I managed to hold my liquor well. Not going to vomit ever again.Soe and angela came to join us after that and we started for a game of mahjiong! i lost 6 bucks in total. Lady luck wasnt on me and im sucks in playing. HAHA.

Was arguing with him as usual last week. His indecisiveness of coming down to zouk simply just pissed me off. Upon seeing him, we talk about the past and i realised our thinking just crash, too many differences between us. Thanks for telling me that your heart is totally dead for me. Thanks for telling me that i didnt changed after so long. I should just wake up from my fairy tales dream and move on. Treat it is as i was never good enough for you, everything i do was wrong. Each words that you said, just break my heart time after time. Too much for me to bear. One big lesson learnt never put in all your effort to make things work if you know things is not gonna to work out. I regretted putting so much hopes only to get myself deeply hurt in the end. I wasnt only hurt but was deeply in hurt. Dont keep saying that you're the only one who can understand me, in fact you dont. Dont keep saying that all i thought was only myself and i didnt spare a thought for you. Your heart is totally dead and the burden is relieved, whos the one suffering silently here? Each day shes just trying her best to forget every single thing about you. But when the night gets lonely and dark, she starts thinking what did she do to suffer those heartache though she know her pain is nothing compared to those who lose their loved ones, whose r/s is much worser than hers. She know life still goes on.

All i want for christmas wasnt you but is to forget you.
The day when it no longer hurts will be the day when we'll talk again.
Meanwhile, i just want to be alone.
Even being friends seem so difficult, the urge to talk to him, looking at my hp several times hoping that he'll call/sms. It make me seem like im e biggest fool.
I dont want you to affect my life cause i know i can be happier.

Make me a happy girl >3

2008-12-21T18:18:00.005+08:00

Five days of work ended on friday.

A series of unfortunate things happened.
Firstly, i fall sick.It sucks to fall sick at this moment. Weather have been pretty bad these days and almost my whole family are falling sick.
Secondly, my acer charger have officially spolit which means i got to go down to the service centre to change a new one. It started when i smell burning smell coming from the charger, my heart stopped for a moment only to realise that its burn!! I got to this habit of switching on my laptop for one whole day and after a long period of use,it has offically died on me!

My blog looks boring with no pictures. im kind of lazy to post it up.
Its been a long time since i last went shopping. ARGH. I need to shop very badly!
I need more jobs opportunity to finance my cravings for shopping,food and clubbing.
10 weeks of holiday, im counting down like real soon.
Xmas, new year and CNY!
I love CNY becos...
I get to sleep,eat,gamble,collect angbaos and go for gatherings.

im looking forward to next week's xmas celebration with friends. :)

2008-12-16T23:43:00.003+08:00

Holiday had started im busy working. I learn a lot during these 2 days about doing stock, cash flow, handling customers questions, handling difficult customers and how to deal with it. There are still plenty of things that i need to improve in.Though i made small mistakes, im thankful that my lady boss is quite forgiving. My workplace is kinda of far. At kovan!! I take 1 hr to travel through and from to work, its tiring but for e sake of money everything is worth the time and energy.
We made mistakes but we learn and grow from it.

2008 is ending real soon and i've been reading friends blog stating their 2009 goals and new year resolution.
2008 had been full of ups and downs for me.
The happy, sad,wonderful and down moments.
Till the day when i know we're not going to be e same again.
Now im going to start mine soon here!
1. Have a strict diet and exercise plan
2. Spend my money wisely
3. When the term starts, stay focus and get good grades.My GPA is damn lousy. Dad is going to sponsor me to go SIM provided if i can get in.
4.Driving license(its a must)
5.Learn yoga(it have been always my wish to learn)

2008-12-10T17:12:00.002+08:00

Retook my basic theory and i actually failed.(dont laugh ok)
Im not shy or embarrassed to admit and i really study damn hard.
Probably e same effort i put in for my fav subjects during o level.
I always believe that basic theory is not something which is so easy to fail and im disappointed that i actually failed quite a number of times.
No matter how my friends laugh and make fun of me, i dont put it to heart seriously.
Alright, i admit im pretty upset and demoralised.
Im not dumb or silly but why is it so hard to pass?!!
Kill me please
:(
Even my parents were utterly disappointed.

It will be my fifth attempt, to be exact i failed 4 times because i overslept once.
Basic theory seem easy to others but it always seem difficult for me.
Well oh well, marilyn is not giving up but she still pin high hopes on getting her license latest by end of next year.
Gonna book extra theory trial practice to prepare myself for e test next month.
While i only can envy my close friends, who failed their basic theory yet passed on e second attempt. Their advice to me was go for the trial practice and keep doing it.
All e best to you ppl for yr FTT and TP.

2008-12-07T23:30:00.009+08:00

Long weekends ahead! Tmr is a public holiday and im skipping sch for a job interview on tuesday which means 5 days of holiday straight! Im bored of slacking at home and i hope i can find a job soon to earn some income.Time for me to do something productive if not im going to become a potential slacker soon.

Have been playing facebook-pet society for the whole day and still not getting bored of it. So hooked up to this game now.
This whole week was great, spending with my friends.
Went to zouk/phuture on wednesday and skipped school on thurs. The feeling was great, need not attend the damn PHP lesson. Reach zouk ard 9 plus and phuture's quota have already reached the limit, i and angie were damn disappointed but we were lucky to bump into her friends who manage to sign us in. Phew :)) Sandy came to join us after tat but left early.

Testing out my new camera phone.

In school..

Steamboat & Eski Bar on saturday.

2008-12-04T23:12:00.002+08:00

I've deleted the previous entry due to some reasons. Whatever it is, we're still on talking terms. Im happy with the things between us now. Definitely not as close as before. I guess talking to you was the last thing on my mind when we stopped talking to each other for 2 months. During those 2 months, I was remaining very cool & calm just to find out what I really want. I've sorted out my thoughts of why we ended this way and why did things turned out ugly. No longer dwelling over the past and to expect a miracle to happen.
You used to my be great companion and will always be my friend.
The deep scar will be forever there.

But im definitely stronger than before.
Promise a proper update soon with pics!

2008-11-24T22:09:00.007+08:00

Above are the modules i've selected. Hopefully i wont regret taking financial and banking since the big economic downturn which will last until 2010. Financial accounting is one elective which i have been pondering whether to take up because from what i heard is quite similar to POA which i have study in sec sch. Other electives doesnt seem to appeal to me so i'll still stick to financial accounting.

Saturday was family outing.Suntec city was super crowded and i really hate going out during weekends with places full of people. No choice because of some singtel roadshow and in the end we make a wasted trip down and head back to causeway point to check out those hot deals.

Food is always my first love and we settled down at food republic for our dinner.

Headed back to causeway point to check out the hot deals and after some findings about the broadband and hp plans, i decided to get a new phone.And I swear that it was a imprompt decision for me to change my hp. Because i dont even have the intention to change my sony erission K810i after using for 1 year. The features,appearance and the price of the model attracts me to buy the phone on e spot. And thanks to my dad who sponsor 100 bucks for it and he makes me a happy girl for the day. =D
Heres a pic of my very chioooo phone which im totally in love now.
On a random note,my dad just upgraded a new plan with a broadband and new mio tv! Every month need to pay 60 bucks for it and we'll get to watch unlimited movies. Alright, no excuses for me to get bored.I've yet to watch finish gossip girl ep 9-11 and its much more scandalous compare to the first few eps.

Im all up for xmas :)

Nights ppl.

2008-11-20T14:49:00.006+08:00

School have been very exhausting and tiring.I simply cant wait for lessons to end everyday. To think i actually attend school diligently almost everyday without leaving half-way.*claps* Ignore my previous post, i just want to rant about how i feel deep inside. I am feeling much more better now.

Pictures below were taken on tuesday. Was having web multimedia's lesson and it was one of the best lesson i had through out the whole of 10 weeks. Our problem statement for the day will be to take photos and upload it into the internet. I and my group members have our fair-share of fun using canon DSLR camera. After the photoshoot thingy, i am so into photoshoot and i wanna learn more about it in future.

I came out with this very stupid idea of taking e pic like this. hehe

Credits to shazzie. =D

She took a half-flash close-up on my guess wallet. I simply love this pic :)
The focus and the blur effect behind.
I came over to vanessa's class to take a photo with her. She love this pic. :))

Module selection is out already. I was given a list of electives and core modules to choose. Still deciding and I almost done with selecting with what I want. 10 NDA pts to clear, 8 Modules and 2 FYP to clear before i say good-bye to RP! I'll seeing myself getting more busy when the new term starts. So right now, i just want to earn money and relax.

Have a great week ahead !

2008-11-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

People's mood and feelings change.
I guess mine too.
Its hard for me to find the courage inside me again.
Let it be.
I know i can never change the fact the way things are now.

I might be aware that friends are reading my blog but it seem like it always lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation.
If you've know me well enough, you wouldn't have said such things.
Tired & sick of explaining.
I dont want to step into a complicated situation anymore.
Trying to salvage a problem which seem so hard.

Im affected but i guess i'll be alright after a few days.

Sometimes when things change, you just got to adapt to it.

Something to keep me happy for the whole day that is i passed my PP! I feel so sleepy and i didnt sleep well last night.

Jakarta's trip will be cancelled due to some reasons. I dont want to rot at home for 3 weeks during holidays. I want to be productive and stop wasting my time to go out! Occasional clubbing and pubbing will be alright but excerising is my top priority. So far, i havent been clubbing for these few weeks just to be a goody-good girl. Nah, not much of the mood or the energy to club. Clubbing mood will resume next month.

I cant seem to smile now.

2008-11-15T15:25:00.013+08:00

Overdue pictures taken on tuesday.

Aston
Nice food and the price is rather reasonable.

My dad was damn tempted to go after reading it from the newspaper. But our whole family simply love angus steakhouse's beef. Right sis?

Thanks lyon who drove us to dempsey hill. Went to ben and jerry to have ice-cream. Super sinful but i simply love it =D

Next,we chill out at one of the pub there. Nice ambiance,definitely a place worth chilling out with yr friends.

Hoegarden is my fav beer nowwwww..

Comments from my advisors on my PP presentation:

Advisor comments:Clarity and easy to comprehend. Reasonable clear interpretation of data within the context. Acceptable recommendations.

Asessor comment 1: You itemized the content headings with page numbers but no page numbers in the report.It would be better to write down the job title for the colleagues that you interviewed.Analysis could be clearer by having sub headers. Not clear in External environment, not sure which part is Opportunity and which part is Threats in your report.In your posters, points in opportunity of SWOT should be Strengths. Presentation was logical.

Asessor comment 2: A coherently written report. But points made under section of Opportunities are actually strengths, thus there are no points made for Opportunities. Student could have commented about the relative positioning of Phillips vs Braun shavers etc. Student's presentation was coherent and clear.

On a happier note,my jakarta trip with my friends is finally confirm! Horray =D
Counting down to my 3 weeks holiday.
I should go out less often to save more money.

I havent been doing well for my UTs and i really hate it.
Oh well, i got to buck up.

2008-11-12T18:30:00.006+08:00

Awesome dinner i had ytd at aston and great time at dempsey hill!
My first virgin trip to dempsey hill and im totally loving e place now.
This is when i realised that getting a driving license is so impt to me cause dempsey hill is damn out of e place in spore and i promise myself that im so gonna rent a car and drive to tat place.
Pictures will be uploaded soon.

PP presentation goes pretty well.Im glad everything is over!
Although there are mistakes make in my poster, i guess overall i did pretty fine.
Gonna party real hard and enjoyed myself during weekends!

Wenkai's birthday celebration at zouk today but i gave it a miss!
I miss mambo.
BFF,we must club during dec :)

2008-11-10T23:07:00.004+08:00

Going to be rather busy this whole week with 2 Uts and my pp presentation on wed!
I'm almost done with my preparation of my presentation,hopefully everything goes well and i can just slack all e way.
=D
After presentation, will be watching movie with my family.
Thurs and fri will be having some activities.
No pictures for last week cause not much major events happening.
Simply cant wait for holidays to come.
I desperately need a job for all my extra spendings.
My parents and sis have been kind enough to give me monthly allowance,like what they said i should just stop going out and save some money for rainy days since the economic is very bad now.
Overseas trip is still planning in progress with my friends.(Bangkok and jakarta trip)
I got my father's approval to go jakarta but there are still on-going discussion whether to go anot.
Spore is pretty boring so i just wanna to getaway
Planning to go australia with my family too.
Probably around next yr july.
SOOOOOOO....
i got to start saving enough money! To spend on nice clothes,nice bags and treat myself with good food.

I forget to mention that I want to excerise so so badly!
No more oily food for me.

I want to enjoy life to e fullest
:)

I hate to admit that memories of you & me can never be replaced.
Reality is cruel but im accepting...

2008-11-02T18:12:00.010+08:00

Holiday offically ends today! The feeling kind of sucks cos i dread waking up at 7 plus every morning and attending sch from 8am-4pm kind of rountine. Worst still, theres a UT on tuesday which i havent even revise a single thing on it.

Sleeping almost 4-5am everyday which is super bad for my body and complexion. Constant nagging from my dad and the increase of electricity bill cause me to be even more moody.
Going out means i'll be back home late, dad wont get to see me.
Staying at home means i will on my laptop from afternoon till late night or morning.
I cant get to sleep early and my laptop is my only source to keep me entertain for the whole day.

Halloween was so not fun!
Didnt manage to get into zouk on friday after queuing for freaking 3 hrs. That was the biggest joke. I and my friends even took a cab down and the queue was already like way behind and i still assume that the queue was damn short. All of us were just plain fussy, just wouldnt want to get into zouk but future. Last resort was to head down to arena. I got a free entry inside! The music was kind of dissapointing, with the same song repeating like twice in an hour. Didnt get to hear all my fav r & b songs. Dancing at the podium and the dancefloor was awesome. :) Other suggestions like to head down to st james powerhouse and dragonfly was cancel in the end, all of us just want to head back home to sleep.

Pictures at e bottom.
Thursday's outing with bestie van. Went to watch High School Musical 3. Fanastic music with hot casts like zac efron and vanessa hudgen. Defintely a movie worth watching.

Cam-whoring inside the hotel!

I and vanessa were craving for food to eat so we dropped by for some donuts!yummy.

While queuing outside zouk.....took a number of pictures..
Posing with this hot babe..

I & dan

Wendy :)

Look at alex's face which he claimed tat he looks retarted :X

Meet up with van yesterday to do some catching up. Dine at paragon-spageddies :)

Till then ppl.
Have a nice week ahead!

2008-10-29T00:52:00.005+08:00

Wendy's 21st birthday on deepavali :)

Heart-shape balloon. It spells L-O-V-E.

I love this pic e most :) The angle and everything

When all e gals come together...*smile*

The pretty birthday gal :)

Weekends was spent going out with friends and it feels really good to stay at home to laze around during weekdays. 6 more weeks to go school and soon the 3 weeks holiday is coming.
I wanna work work!

Halloween party @ zouk this coming friday!
Any friends who are coming please inform me.
My costume arrive today but sadly i ordered the wrong one.
Got to mix and match now.
Hopefully it turn out to be something like a costume.
Pretty upset about it but well, i believe i can do something about it.

Hope you're doing fine.
I dream about you yesterday
Its so real,so real...
I want to get out of this dream that doesnt belongs to you and me.

2008-10-23T15:27:00.019+08:00

Birthday celebration =D

Many many photos!
I want to thanks my family & friends for making such a memorable birthday for me.
Pictures speaks everything.

Last friday, was indeed a very long day with UT after school and rushing home to change and bath before meeting my friends for dinner. Dinner was at fisherman warf to fill our famished stomach after a long day.

Weising & van

Fried fish & chips

After dinner, headed down to bedroom to chill out and sing to our hearts content. We were having so much fun over there singing!

Dropped by arena as it was nic's birthday celebration. :)

With this sickening fren of mine-Nic

Saturday-I was feeling damn unwell the moment i woke up. But i still dragged myself to learn how to play tennis. Yea,you hear me 'TENNIS'. Meet up with my friends and play for a good 1 hr because i was late for 1 hr when my friend book the court for whole 2 hours. After washing up to bath and everything, headed to tiong bahru. Went to pasta house(sakae) to have pasta!.Gosh,my first time there. My birthday treat from a friend. :)

Hongkong dessert! My fav.

Sunday-Celebrated together with my family.I was feeling damn sick and all i wanted was to rest at home. As promised by my dad, he said hes gonna treat me. So i didnt want to disappoint my family and still went ahead to celebrate. Dined at millenia walk-steakhouse. The food i'll rate it 7/10.

Monday-My actual birthday. Received alot of messages from close friends and good buddies.THANKS ALOT!The nice strawberry cheesecake birthday which my sis and mum bought.

Oh well, i look damn tired. With no make-up on.

i'm happy for now.
=D

2008-10-20T17:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
=D
Skipped school today. My post-early birthday celebration started like last friday till sunday.Totally worn-out and now im offically sick. Poor me. Weak immune system. Fall sick on my actual birthday. Gonna head back to school tmr.
YIPPE. im anticipating a great weekend ahead cos i'll be having my one week holiday

2008-10-19T15:34:00.002+08:00

Fabulous weekend.
:)
Totally loving it to bits.

Though im feeling so sick & weak since last friday but i still enjoyed myself.
Gonna have dinner with my family later.
Hopefully i can recover soon so i can attend sch tmr.
I want to thank each and everyone of you who took out time & effort to celebrate my birthday.
Though some left early due to school, work and other commitment,I still appreciate.
Thanks girls, you know who you are and not forgetting the guys.
The presents was to my liking, ahhh,you girls really know my taste.
Pictures will be up on mon or tue.
Stay tune

=D

My head is spinning & spinning

2008-10-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

PEEK-A-BOO! Very interesting pictures found online.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day for me. Post-early birthday celebration,lessons and UT after school. I can foreseen being dead beat upon reaching home.

Nights ppl =D

2008-10-13T01:24:00.005+08:00

Family outing on Sunday! I was chatting with one random friend the night before and he was saying that he couldn't believe that i look like the sort who goes out with my family. Looks are deceiving but i just wanna say i cherish my family a lot and they're the ones who are by my side whenever im down. Without my dad's advice, i dont think i can ever walk out from this darkness.
:)

My one-and-only beloved sis. I believe God make us to be sisters for life.The one who always worry for me especially in my r/s. Indeed lots of thing had happened but i am really clear what i want now.

Second shot!

Breakfast cum lunch was at crystal jade. My family's fav dim sum place

ALL THE FOOD!

Dinner was settled at muthu curry. The curry fishead was heaven plus the prawns and muttons!
Im really bless to eat such good food and food really makes me a happy girl
:)

My birthday celebration venue and activities all have been confirmed.
Invited some close friends & i simply cant wait for friday to come!
Gonna party and have loads of fun.

On a happier note, my sis & mum might be sponsoring e gucci bag for me!
Double happiness.

"When you cant remember why you're hurt, thats when you're healed"
I'll be waiting for e day to come.
To heal my heart

I admit it still hurts but it doesnt hurt as much as in e past.
Love is blind

:)

2008-10-11T00:37:00.003+08:00

I was searching for this Gucci bag from the website but sadly i couldn't find the bag that im totally in love with now. The colour is very sweet and nice, just right for me to carry to school and its big enough for me to put all my stuff. I am still thinking hard whether to get it because i really need a proper bag rather than getting cheap bags to replace my old ones which spoiled very easily.

Currently looking for a part-time job too. Need it to pay my monthly insurance fees and my daily expenses.Life havent been changing much for me.With school and more difficult problems piling up for the next following weeks, theres nothing left for me to think except to get my work done. 3 test coming up next week and that is adding to my stress and this is gonna be the FIRST time that i am having 3 tests straight in a week.

Started on my PP poster like a few days ago and managed to get 1/4 done, the rest i will try to finish asap so that i can have no worries during the weekends and play hard.=) I kinda enjoyed the way im slacking now,knowing that theres no work during the weekend makes me even more happy.

I used to look forward to friday because it makes me a happy girl.
The presence and sincerity was there.
Nothing beats seeing e person standing there.
Well,friday its also a happy day for i & my frens
:)

my eyes are closing when im typing this entry.oh well,night!

2008-10-06T22:42:00.007+08:00

Awesome weekends with my beloved friends
:)
I hope money can drop down from e sky, had been spending alot, contributing to the economic and e number one killer is e cab fare!
My bitch-Vanessa
Someone who is frank with her words and is not afraid of voicing out her opinions.
Hey girl, im glad that you're finally getting back on e right track.
Keep going..

Saturday-Went to watch a movie at the cathay with friends."Eagle Eye". Super thrilling and definitely worth watching.

Went to "bedroom" for drinking and singing session.After that headed to timbre for another drinking session. After many attempts to step into timbre, i finally managed to go in!
Super awesome.

Sunday-tanning and volleyball session. My skills totally cannot make it now. Soe and his friend did came and we played volleyball with a group of hot ang-mo guys. More sentosa outing please
:)
I wanna train my skills!

Thats my back. And my very messy hair. i saw FATS.

2008-10-06T00:14:00.003+08:00

My eyes are like almost half-close but im still blogging because i was reading my friend's blog and just got this urge to blog my thoughts.
Everyone claims that they did their best.They threw their pride and ego away because they love that particular person so much. They did many small things behind your back to attract your attention. But in other's eyes, they dont feel the effort that you put in and the little things you do. They think that you didnt even try hard at all.

I cant explain how I am feeling inside. My friend wrote that the reason being might be lack of communication. I dont think in this way. Even communication can lead to more quarrels and even bigger quarrels.

Truth hurts. I guess thats part and parcel of life. Everyone got to go through it. We learn from mistakes and pick up from there. I dont hate that person, neither did i tried to avoid the situation. Im facing it very bravely now.

Im pretty aware of things happening around me,people close to me,telling me their problem and stuff. Though, there are times i still make certain assumption. I guess we're all human beings.
We tend to jump into conclusion. I seriously cant be bother with anyone's life now unless you are my close friend and I feel that i got the right to tell you whats going on. Other than that, i think we should just mind our own business.

I'll upload pics tmr
tata!
:)

2008-10-02T16:52:00.005+08:00

Back me back to reality.
All good things come to an end.
I want to stop feeling this way.
Remaining so cool & calm is what i can do right now.
After many attempts to struggle,its still e same.
Time will bring me back to e right track

PP poster not done.
Grades are only average
When can i stay focus and get really an A rather than B?
Concentration level not there.
How long can i erased away those memories?
Why does my heart tell me this and yet im doing another thing?
its always so complicated.
I can never believe that i can get so upset over this.
Totally not me.

Even the greatest love falls apart,nothing is within my control
"Fight for your happiness"
To me fighting for my happiness is not in my dictionary now.
2 years ago i did it.
It tears me apart.
Its not about fighting for my happiness cause theres no turning back.
It used to think that love conquers everything even when facing any ups and downs.
I was wrong.
It just come and go.
Learn to accept it.
So what you're crying and grieving over it?
Things will never be e same again...never again
The other party will not know how you feel.
Why not start making your life meaningful?

Every story has a beautiful & happy ending.
Mine ended.
A great change.

2008-10-01T16:05:00.005+08:00

Tuesday was a very fun-outing. Meet up with three different groups of ppl.
Town is like my regular meeting place with my gals.

Meet up with this pretty babe of mine-Angie
Shes shy in nature and very gentle.
We chatted about the past & present.
During e chat,i realised that we gt so many things to catch up with each other.
i miss sec sch days
:(
Our happy & carefree moments,ogling at guys, criticizing and stalk them.
Mugging for o's and thinking of smugging to clubs when we're underage
Went to club during 18 but realised that it isnt a big deal anyway.
HAHHA

Meet up with vanessa next. My another gossip partner. Very optimistic and positive towards life.Sometimes i really admire how you handle things so well. My toilet/shopping/working partner
Cheers
=)

Headed to stjames powerhouse during e night with e gals. Free entry with 5 free drinks. Awesome night playing my fav r&b music
Music was totally sucks initially but after 12am e music sounded nt tat bad.
:)
Totally love e atmosphere.
It was heavy downpour on tuesday and was really drenched.
I really enjoyed myself that night.
Dancing on e podium
Totally cool!
Oh ya, didnt realise that beside 'dragonfly' was a new club called "firefly"
I was laughing my heads off when i heard that.
On e way back, the taxi driver was damn funny.
He tot we went to dragonfly to club.
OMG. uncle we look like cheena ah lian meh?
Alright nia, dragonfly is not too bad.

2008-09-29T23:54:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday yongxiang!

Hope you like e piece of cake that we bought for u
:)

During the second break, went to acc wx together with yx and vanessa to collect the car.
haha. OMG. i swear that i and vanessa nearly flung out of the backside without any safety belt!
We couldnt sit in peace because wx was having problems adjusting to the car.
The car stop suddenly in e middle of e road and all of us were bursting out in laughters.
Alright, cannot laugh at wx for i haven even get my license.
At least he pass with just one attempt
:)
Very remarkable.

The driver

The bdae boy :)
He was damn hyper and excited for e whole day.

2008-09-27T20:50:00.015+08:00

Victor's birthday:)

Manhattan->eski bar->Arena
I spent quite alot yesterday.
OMG.
I need a job like seriously to keep myself busy.
Idling at home and starting at e walls with deep thoughts makes me feel more useless.
Drinking and cabbing home have been a huge burden and my monthly allowance is so tight.

This is a college just for you.
Hope you enjoyed yr day!
:)

May all yr hopes & wishes come true.

My very enthu-phototaking-partner van

The r & b queen who loves to dance-wendy

Went to dine at manhattan! I'll only rate it 6.10 overall.

Fried mushroom, the sauce is heaven.

Look at e amount of food for seafood platter. Shared by 3 of us.

The very happy us.

A group photo.

My fav peeps in sch :)
They bright joy & laughter into my life.

Headed down to clarke quay and we saw the F1 race platform at MS.Gosh, i swear that was really an eye-opening event. Went to the nearby toilet to cam-whored.

Headed to eski bar.

Blue Lagoon

With e bdae boy:)

Wx-i always scold vulgarities at him.

The night is still young. Headed down to arena! something diff other than e usual zouk,mos & stjames
I was wearing my new heels and was dead tired after dancing.

Im missing zouk :(

The 'very' cool us.

2008-09-25T22:10:00.008+08:00

My legs are aching to e jog i've ytd.
The jog was an imprompt decision as i was thinking of doing something productive rather than hanging outside.
The decision was worthwhile and i jog 2 rounds and do almost 20 sit-ups.
Although theres nothing to be happy about at least it is a start for me and i hope to make it a habit to jog every week.
:)

whats is meant to be yrs, will always be yrs
what is not yrs, will never be yrs

If you choose to be sad den u will always be sad
If you choose to be happy den u will always be happy
I definitely choose to be happy.

Even when e night seem to get dark and everything seem to fall apart, i'll always tell myself tomorrow will be a better day.
somehow im just tired of mentioning certain things.
let it be.

2008-09-24T02:26:00.002+08:00

im still awake at this hour. Time check2:27am, the fact theres no school tmr makes me more engergtic.
Feeling quite hungry now and i really miss those late-night supper with my friends last time.
Nothing beats having a car around especially at night.
Poor me, still struggling with my BTT and have become a laughing stock by my friends for booking the fourth time.
:(
Oh well, im still putting high hopes on getting my license.
I dont easily give up on e things which i aim for, however,today's lesson on web application development, i just totally gave up.
I hope to buck up and get better grades for this module for i've gotten 2 Cs for it.
Pretty demoralised.
I reckon im gonna do well for this module.

Bring me far away from here

2008-09-23T13:06:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be a long day ahead,with UT later on.
I think im seeing my energy draining away.
My current fav song is "what about now".
I need to keep myself awake!
=))))

2008-09-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

Weekends was well spent.Went to watch "mirrors" at cathay.Headed down to boat quay for some drinks. As usual it was girls' talk again. The heart to heart talk was indeed good. I appreciate those advices that you have given me all these while. I will not hurt myself again but stand up bravely. I must not let any setbacks affect me.

I begin to see e cruelity of love. The once so lovely us turned out to be complete strangers now. Going through the initial stages of liking each other, becoming so close and till the end of today.
I really learn alot.
I tried to be the best girl in your eyes, sometimes things just doesnt goes our way and no matter how hard i tried, things just doesnt work out.
Environment and the people we mix with cause our thinkings to change.
I will only be deceiving myself that we can be together
I was browsing through our old pictures, i know we have many happy moments together.
We fought so hard to make things work but it just simply dont work out.
We gave up eventually.

I notice e drastic change in you.
Its obvious but i took a week to realise that im initiating all e conversations.
I sense something was wrong and the tone you talked to me was just rude and you are plainly not interested to strike just a short conversation.
True enough, i said love is cruel.

2008-09-15T15:40:00.001+08:00

i'm fighting hard with my emotions.
Unbearable.

2008-09-14T15:05:00.005+08:00

This whole week was school but im always glad that i have a bunch of friends who make me smile and laugh. Theres not one moment of time when i will feel bored with them. Its just e company that brightens up my day. :)
Woke up late this afternoon ard 12 plus and i was texting vanessa that i could not make it for e tanning outing with her friend.
I felt quite sorry especially im always looking forward for such outing and because i was pretty down and i know staying at home makes me more emo.
I just feel that i should just stay at home for a day to rest to sort out my thoughts.
To ask myself what i really want in life now.
Why am i wasting my time crying over stupid stuffs over & over again?
I just have to stand firm with my decision,be independant and be STRONG.
I hate myself for being so weak in r/s.
Its always r/s thats killing me inside out.
So much that i dont want to bother yet it just appear in my mind.
I can give advices to my friends and stuff yet i cant do anything for myself.
Waking up in e afternoon with swollen eyes, e feeling sucks to e core.
Just dont feel like going out,dont feel like talking to anyone.

Being independant means im already winning half e battle.
Hanging in e past doesnt helps me instead it kills me even more.
im not going to put in so much effort again for the next 5 -10 yrs.
im not going to let e slightest things to affect me,not anymore...
its over and i not going to blog about this ever again.
ppl will see me with a more happier post i promise
:)

My PP is finally approved and im going to start on my poster soon.

Below are some pictures.
These pictures are taken through a glass panel which showed two reflected piece of art.

I've two close gf with e same name!Vanessa. Thanks the two V's for being there for me.

Fried mars bar. OMG. Super sinful but i and vanessa love it to bits!

Look at how happy am i when i see food

My close gf:)

2008-09-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

Im down with flu now.Feeling kind of weak and sleepy.
I cant wait for weekends to come.
Life is kind of mundane now.
With school and back to home again.
Never been so obedient for this whole year.
On the lighter note, im pretty satisfied with my grades so far.
WEEE

2008-09-10T18:11:00.002+08:00

I missed my BTT and this is my 3rd attempt if i were to take it.
And my course expired on e 9th of oct.
I hope there are some kind souls who cancel their booking last min and give me their slots
Argh.
Im felt so silly, couldnt believe that i actually forget e timing and went there at 1pm when my test was supposed to start at 12.50pm.
I thought my test was at 1.05pm.
I must must get up early for my next test and PASS IT.

I've waited for my advisor reply for almost 2 weeks but haven heard from her yet.
I hope i need not re-work again.

Alright,I was at bugis with van bestie ytd.
Shopped and bought a few stuff.
Im so in love with my new dress now and i cant wait to wear it.

I read some blogs about people losing their loved ones like bf and friends.
I do feel alot for this people and i cant imagine losing someone so close and dear to me.
The pain,trauma and suffering that people go through, is something that i never experience before.
Thats e reason why im always so thankful that i've such a wonderful parents.
Cherishing every moment with them and attending every family outing that i had with them.

I was reading about some articles online about" Why do i get jealous?"
It mentioned that "If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you."
Yes, i think that happened to many girls who feel insecure but there is something which is called "communication", try communicating and talk things out.
Dont jump into conclusion if you are just making assumption cause you will only make e matter worst.

Whatever, i think i type alot of nonsense today.
Feeling so tired now.
Till then.

2008-09-06T23:46:00.004+08:00

Im feeling so lethargic now.
First week of sch wasnt that bad.
There are only 5 guys in my class and e rest are all gals.
Only taking 4 modules which means wed is my off day.
It is only e starting of sch and im dreading sch so much.
I need a job during weekends so that i wont be rotting at home.
Need to meet up with frens whom i haven see for a long time.

My birthday is next month.
I dont know how i want to celebrate it and every year, my birthday is just like any normal day.
Having a simple meal with my loved ones is what i do every birthday.
Last year, was rather a more special one because i celebrated my bdae at mount faber.
Indeed a special one but no special memories that i wanna share.

Its coming close to a year. Coming close to this far, i wont say its easy.
Many ups and downs.
Putting in lots of patience,effort and time.
you never failed to make me angry,sad,happy and killing you at times.
leave me alone.

2008-09-03T00:46:00.013+08:00

Holidays ends today! I realised i only work for 7 days for the whole of 3 weeks. Well,not to bad at least some money earn for some shopping. Getting my pay probably this friday. WEE. Im happy.
The pictures sum up the whole of last week.

Meet up with vanessa & pig. Acc pig to cut his hair at heeran, hes pretty satisfied with his hair now. Good for him =) Dinner was at NYDC.

Sentosa with my fav peeps. We played volleyball and chill at cafe-del-mar.

Thursday and friday was working at acer. Make a few new frens. And i totally enjoyed e working environment. Damn cool. Jeremy came to look for us! This guy never failed to brighten up our day and make us laugh like crazy!

After work on friday, headed down to attica. Together with vanessa's friends. WOO!Still very much prefer zouk.

Sunday was family outing and we headed to NGE for very delicious dim sum and sis pay all for it!

Dinner was at angus restaurant.
Starting with appetizer....

Bread..

Mushroom soup.

Salad

AND LASTLY WITH THE MAIN COURSE...This was what my mum ate. Grilled salmon!

Rib eye steak!

Last dish for e day!

Meet up with vanessa again for some shopping! Settle down at pasta cafe.YUMMY. I love food.

2008-08-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

Things are always back to square one.
Marilyn needs a long long break cos she does not feel e hurt and anger anymore.
I know what should i focus now.
I only can say im feeling very "sick".
It takes both hands to clap.

Im loving my life.

School is commencing in a week's time but im not really mood for schooling.
None of my usual clique is in e same class as me but there are 2 which are from my previous class.
I need movitation to go school, e motivitation to do work.
Working for comex for tmr and on friday selling acer.
:)
Do come and support me!

Im still re-working on my damn PP.
How i wish holiday is like 2 mths only?

Pictures for sentosa trip will be up soon.
Alot of pics.

2008-08-18T23:06:00.016+08:00

Hey pple, im back. This whole week have been working.And i've been going out everyday since holiday started. Holiday is only a pathetic 3 weeks and first week is coming to an end.Once my holiday end then it will be e starting for e rest of the polys. Life is rather bored without my family and friends around.

Massive pictures!

The oh-so-delicious food at Ah Yat restaurant!A full main course dinner consisting of fresh prawns, abalone,vegetable,fried rice,fried fish and deserts! To sum everything up, it was heaven!
Went to dye my hair with vanessa for free. Just be a model and i got my free hair-dye.
WOO. Outcome wasnt what i expected but overall, it was rather fine with me.
Credits to vanessa for editing e pics!
Got kind of lazy to edit pics.

Pretty gal=)

Tats me. My before look was like damn tired! no wonder i need a new hair dye to brighten up my looks. The outcome wasnt that striking but it is still acceptable by me.

The outcome:
Inner layer of my hair

Final outcome!

It was drinking session at eski bar. I've a hell of fun time there. Got to do e most forfeits and do many crazy stuff over there. Oh gosh.

Bowling day a few weeks back with wx & vanessa. Very enjoyable!
=)

Last few days with W65H.Its really very pity that i got to separate with my this bunch of very crazy classmate!

my fav gf.=)

Who else other den jeremy can make me laugh so hard?

Data com's fac.

All class pic

We're still good friends.
Sorry for e times that i misunderstood you.
Those bad posts shall be deleted.
Everything is clear.
The heart to heart talk with you was good today.
We can talk about almost anything.
I know you know me best.

Though i always make you very angry,i just want to say im sorry.

Many beautiful memories.

2008-08-17T15:12:00.002+08:00

Im still alive and kicking.

Currently found a temp admin job.it can get quite boring at times with no internet access and all
Nothing beats msging frens to pass my time.
Lots of pics to upload!
cya.

2008-08-06T15:39:00.002+08:00

Let's put to an end.
I'm free like a bird.

2008-08-04T08:56:00.005+08:00

The past two weekends was relatively fun & fulfilling.
From outings to family dinners.

Pics below are taken when we're looking for wx.
Bought really cheap conditioners at 5 for $5 at loreal.

Cam-whoring in e toilet

Jeremy(my happy pill)hahah. Wx busy msging.

Vanessa & me.

Cam-whoring continuess...

Attended a church service at kallang stadium few days ago. Indeed an eye-opening event and beneficial talk.

Clubbing at zouk/st james last week with surene & friends.

Working at singtel for 2 days.

2008-07-31T17:20:00.002+08:00

I failed my basic again after e second attempt.
Isnt a very big deal anyway since ppl treated it as a joking matter.
I'm not petty but its e way ppl response which makes me feel even more demoralised.
I dont need your understanding because u just dun understand.

=)

2008-07-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

Today was spent rather fruitful.

Together with vanessa & wenxiong, we actually chill at starbucks to complete our PP.
Im still left with 3o0 words to complete before its due to submit on 1st August.
My day was started off quite badly but i realised that my life is still colourful with great friends & a wonderful family who are very supportive of whatever i do.
Like what my dad have always said, i got to prioritize what i really want in my life and make sure i dont regret whatever i have done.

2008-07-13T13:19:00.008+08:00

Anyway this is DAY 4 during my holiday trip.
I cant remember what did i do exactly so i'll just post up e pics!

Alright.I've been staying at home for e past two days.Completing my PP, reading magazines and of cause having sufficient rest.
Currently looking for jobs too.

The weather is pretty good to excerise, not that i dont have e motivation or im too busy,its my pure laziness.
On a happier note, holiday is coming in a month's time.